I’m extremely exhausted tonight. I have worked the last two
days in a row and stayed up with my cranky child in between. It’s been
miserable! She has been really fussy the past few days. She doesn’t want to nap
at all and I have no idea what her deal is. I took her to the doctor on Tuesday
because she has been pulling at her ears bad but he told me she had no ear
infection at all and she look as healthy as a horse. I think her top two teeth
are trying to come in. ever since she has gotten the bottom two, she of course
has gnawed on everything she can stick in her mouth but here lately it’s been
way worse. She isn’t really interested in her food or bottles either. Anything
that I have food wise she basically maws me trying to get it and stick it in her
mouth. I know I’m going to miss all this though and so I’m trying not to get
frustrated or take any of it for granted. She definitely likes to push me to my
limits though and its rough when you’ve had no sleep and that all you want but
she wont cooperate. In these moments I put her down walk into my kitchen take a
deep breath and just think I can sleep in a few I will make it and she is just
a baby. We usually play and when I’m calm so is she. I’m going to probably be a
little skimpy on this blog because I am so tires tonight and my baby girl is
down for the night and four hours of sleep has ran out!
~Kayla
Kayla's Blog
Thursday, July 10, 2014
Bad People
07/08
I love using the writing prompts! I just picked write about
seven top things that could happen to bad people. I’m not a very nice person
when in comes to people and they crazy crazy things they do! I just don’t
understand how people can be so cruel and mean to things that have nothing at
all to them. My first would be of course child molesters, I think they should
die a very slow painful death as long as they truly deserve it. Child abusers
would be the same or have a firing squad or be hung. I’m pretty intolerant of
these kinds of people just because I see it every day at my job. I also have a
child of my own and couldn’t imagine ever inflicting pain on her on purpose
especially when she can’t help herself. I’m her voice and her advocate so
people who hurt innocent human beings should also be hurts just as bad
repeatedly. I can be pretty cruel when
it comes to things like this but it’s the way I feel and I can’t help that.
Rapist should have to rot in prison. I think all of these people should and
these horrible things should happen to them when they least expect it. People
that do such terrible crimes vary rarely make it through life in prison. My
brother has told me lots of stories and the prisoners don’t take kindly to
people who do disgusting fowl things to child or anybody for that matter.
They’re obviously in prison already so they could care less about what happens
while they are there. My brother has called me a couple times and asked me to
look people up for him and see why they are in prison with him. I never
understood it until he got out one time and told me that these people do get
ganged up on daily.
~Kayla
~Kayla
NOPOWER???!!! What?
07/07
Thinking of twelve things to do when there is no power is
kind of a hard thing to do. I could read a book, but let’s be honest I really
don’t like ready to much! The only time I really read is when I have to. I
haven’t ever willingly read a book and the last book I did read was in 2012.
You could play a board game but I doubt I have any board games. When we were
little my brothers and I would play monopoly and they would always cheat which
made it no fun for me! When we were little we use to play outside all the time.
That’s something I definitely think kids could use more of instead of the TV
and video games. My aunt basically uses those as her babysitters. I’ve never
seen anything like it! I try and take my daughter outside as much as possible.
It’s understandable if it’s too hot but my aunt has four boys and they’re all
over the age of three! Draw a picture or do arts and crafts is another thing
that doesn’t require a plug in or a charger! I like to think I’m pretty crafty
myself most of the time! I don’t watch a whole lot of TV. I have specific shows
I watch but our TV isn’t constantly on all day long when were home. It’s sad
that now this day and age its hard to think of stuff that doesn’t require
electricity. Its like our lives revolve around it. I don’t know what my aunt
would possible do if she didn’t have a TV or Xbox to sit her children in front
of while she did whatever it is she does! It drives me crazy because her boys
crave for attention from her bad!
~Kayla
A Good Habit
07/06
A good habit that is hard to break would be smoking. Me and
my husband both smoke. When I found out I was pregnant I quit cold turkey. He
continued to smoke which was fine. We don’t smoke in our house or in ours. One
night after I gave birth to my daughter we went out for a drink with some
friends. Well I had one two many drinks and decided I needed a cigarette. That
was a huge mistake! Since then I have been smoking ever since. Recently, we got
a e cigarette and I have been using that. I like it and I have also heard all
the studies about it being bad for you but I feel like all that horrible
chemicals in the actual cigarette are a lot worse. It’s also worse for our
daughter after we’ve smoked to go in with the smell on our clothes and stuff
for my daughter to breathe in. I want to stop before we move but the sooner the
better for the both of us. I also feel like the e cigarette is helping with me
not habit eating which would make me gain back a bunch of the weight I have
recently lost, but also it’s saving me money. Last time I quit I was pregnant
which didn’t help but I was not a very nice person. I know it’s better in the
long run but both me and my husband being hateful is a bad deal in our house!
We would on average save over twenty five hundred dollars a year! That is an
insane amount of money. We only paid a little over a hundred dollars for our e
cigarette and the fluid that goes into the cigarette is twenty dollars and is equal
to thirty packs of cigarettes. I feel it is well worth it and this would be an
awesome habit to break as soon as possible!
~Kayla
Today I Will
07/05
~Kayla
Today I will leave work and drive to my aunts to pick up my
daughter. I will then get her and all of her things together and drive back
across town to my house. When we get home I will feed her a bottle and change
her diaper. We will play for an hour or so then I will feed her some baby food with
cereal in it. She is so funny when she eats baby food. She acts like its kind
of gagging her and then looks at me like “mom what is this stuff?” then she
lets out a big yell and smacks her hands down on the tray. She’s so cute! I
love her so much it kind of hurts. After I get her fed again she will take
about a two hour nap or so until noonish. Then we will get up and do it all
over again. While she is playing I will try and get a little house work down
and get something planned and out for dinner tonight. Knowing that she is taken
care of and its being done right makes me being exhausted all worth it. Some
days its harder than others but in the end I can sleep at night. Someone I know
recently went and picked her son up from day care, which might I add this
provider was recommended thorough the company she works for. She noticed her
infant sons arm was swollen, he was being kind of fussy, and he wouldn’t really
use that arm. She then took him to the emergency room to find out her infant
sons arm was broke in two different places! The doctors said the only way his
arm could have been broke like that was from being stepped on or having
something fall/drop on him. This is why I could not even imagine sending my
daughter to someone I don’t know from Adam and then being able to sleep not
knowing what is going on with my child.
~Kayla
Adoption
07/04
~Kayla
My topic that I have chosen today is adoption. I think
adoption is a wonderful thing for a deserving mom or family. I get really upset
when I see people who have been trying and trying to have a baby who can or
even lose a baby after trying for so long. Then you get the women who have used
drugs, smoked, ect. Their whole pregnancy and their babies come out healthy as
can be. I was someone who didn’t have the greatest pregnancy. My baby girl
stopped growing at twenty eight weeks enutro. If I wasn’t able to have kids I
would definitely adopt a child. I feel in some ways the biological mother should
not get any say or any rights over the child she is putting up for adoption. I
think the child should go to the most deserving not the person you randomly
pick out. Most people don’t know that babies who don’t have an adoptive family
or parent set in place have to go to a foster home until someone wants them.
This is especially tuff to see because I feel like nobody would care about this
poor innocent child but us. That baby could die or something terrible and the
mother who carried this child for nine months wouldn’t care at all. I’m not
saying this is all mothers who decide this is best for their child but some of
them could care less. It breaks my heart and I don’t understand who a human
being could be so cruel to something so sweet and helpless. It really upsets me
when the mother has other kids and she decides she doesn’t want one or any of
them anymore. Just the stuff people can become is unreal and unimaginable! If
only I could change the world J
~Kayla
Freewriting blog
07/03
I don’t really have a whole lot to talk about today. I work twelve hour night shifts at the hospital then take care of my daughter during the day so we don’t have to pay for child care. I worked last night stayed up with my daughter today and now I’m at work now. I’m pretty miserable sitting here trying to keep myself awake. When I’m tired like this, I get really annoyed by everyone I work with because they’re loud and pretty obnoxious. They keep trying to talk to me while I’m doing this journal and that’s really bugging me. I do not like when I don’t get a specific topic to write about because it’s hard to write about nothing and to not think about this assignment while doing it as Peter instructs us to do. I wish I could be at home right now with my family. I will not go to days until I’ve finished school and gotten my RN. There is to much chaos and politics for me and I graduated high school 4 years ago. I don’t have any plans on going back to that hell hole any time soon. We did however get some really good news on Friday. We have been looking for a bigger house to move into as soon as possible. Last Friday we got the call a house we’ve been looking at and waiting for just became available and we can move in on the thirtieth of July! It’s beautiful. Right now we live in a small two bedroom duplex and this house is three bedroom two bath and twice the size of our house now! Plus, this house is so much nicer. I’ve already started packing some stuff like our decorations and things that we won’t be using or needing in the next month. I’m so ready to get out of that place and be able to spread out and actually have our friends and family over comfortably.
~Kayla
I don’t really have a whole lot to talk about today. I work twelve hour night shifts at the hospital then take care of my daughter during the day so we don’t have to pay for child care. I worked last night stayed up with my daughter today and now I’m at work now. I’m pretty miserable sitting here trying to keep myself awake. When I’m tired like this, I get really annoyed by everyone I work with because they’re loud and pretty obnoxious. They keep trying to talk to me while I’m doing this journal and that’s really bugging me. I do not like when I don’t get a specific topic to write about because it’s hard to write about nothing and to not think about this assignment while doing it as Peter instructs us to do. I wish I could be at home right now with my family. I will not go to days until I’ve finished school and gotten my RN. There is to much chaos and politics for me and I graduated high school 4 years ago. I don’t have any plans on going back to that hell hole any time soon. We did however get some really good news on Friday. We have been looking for a bigger house to move into as soon as possible. Last Friday we got the call a house we’ve been looking at and waiting for just became available and we can move in on the thirtieth of July! It’s beautiful. Right now we live in a small two bedroom duplex and this house is three bedroom two bath and twice the size of our house now! Plus, this house is so much nicer. I’ve already started packing some stuff like our decorations and things that we won’t be using or needing in the next month. I’m so ready to get out of that place and be able to spread out and actually have our friends and family over comfortably.
~Kayla
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